Since you've probably been wondering...
We have officially decided to try and impart another goofy little Bowman on the world. As of now we are no longer doing anything to prevent that from happening. That being said, I have a sneaking suspicion that texting and the occasional email between Andy and I while he's at work 24/7 won't get the job done. So I guess we'll just see how things work out.
It took me a while to get to this place. Don't get me wrong -- we absolutely want another child. It's just scary. I'm scared of more miscarriages, disappointment, feelings of loneliness, sacrifices to be able to afford another child, etc. Then there's the fact that we're 1500 miles from our massive support group that we had when Charlie arrived. We've made wonderful friends here, but the network you build in six months isn't quite the same as the one you build in six years. I'm scared of Andy's schedule and having a new baby to care for all on my own. I'm scared of how it will impact Charlie. He's already sad a lot because his daddy's not home. How will he react to losing a lot of my attention as well?
I dread the daily blood thinner shots, the possibility of complications, the likelihood of another round of gestational diabetes, blah blah blah. These aren't necessarily worries. They aren't things I'm dwelling on. I'm just trying to be realistic about what's in store.
In reality, we're excited and hopeful but taking things one day at a time. For now though I'm continuing my quest to lose weight, get healthy, and banish caffeine from my diet. Mostly, I'm trying to pray that God shapes our family according to His plan. It's a hard prayer to pray because I like my plan just fine. I trust Him though. If you wouldn't mind sending some positive thoughts and prayers our way that would be great, too!
12 comments:
I think the world definitely needs another little Bowman running around! YAY! We will be praying for y'all daily that God's will for your family would come to fruition and that God gives you an all surpassing peace about what the future hold!
What you really meant when you said you will be 1500 miles away is....you can't call me at work to come get Charlie when your sick :) Trust me...I wish you were closer so I could do the same to you :)
Charlie will be a great big brother, and you're a great mom and will do a wonderful job with two. I'll pray for you!
I'm hopeful and excited for you, and I will be praying. Your prayer asking that your family be shaped according to God's plan really resonates with me. I usually try to pray that I will be at peace with whatever does or does not happen according to my own plans, but the prospect of God having plans is much more comforting. Keep us posted.
We will be there to support you no matter the distance! Bring it on! Andy, take a day off for crying out loud...
Hang in there girl! I pray that you have a successful and uneventful pregnancy soon. The one positive thing with having gestational diabetes is I actually lost much needed weight because I couldn't eat sugar! I weighed less after Emily was born than before I got pregnant with her. Sadly I allowed sugar to creep back into my diet though . . .you have valid concerns about having a newborn while your husband is working such long hours. Glad you are willing to share these with us.
Jennifer
You'll be in our prayers. I'll be there whenever you need it, to watch Charlie while you're pregnant and need a break (aka nap) and Charlie and the baby or both after you have him/her! You are an amazing mom and the next child you're blessed with will be so lucky to come to your family!
Well, I had been wondering so i'm glad you let us in on your plan! And you never know, technology has come a long way these days...you and Andy may be just fine through texting and emails! :) You'll be in my thoughts and prayers...keep us updated!
Great news!! This aunt will definitely travel 1500 miles to do laundry, make dinner, and let a tired mommy nap! :)
. . . and this grandma really rocks!
I was going to say just what Shanta said...we'll be there for you no matter how far a way you are! Praying for your family!!
Oh Amy! It is very hard not having a network around to help care for a new baby. Imagine doing that and in FRENCH. In all seriousness, God gives you the strength to get through those tough times...and I'm not saying you will have tough times...I'm just saying that you, Charlie, and Andy are amazing and have what it takes to make it if you do!!
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